I'm a little Filipino woman with tons of sex appeal. Now, here are two incredibly important warnings.
I DO NOT NEED TO JOIN RATING COMMUNITIES TO KNOW THIS. PLEASE DO NOT SPAM ME WITH RATING COMMUNITY INVITES. THOSE WHO DO WILL HAVE THEIR COMMENT DELETED AND REPORTED AS SPAM.
Anyone who decides to AIM me out of the blue be forewarned: I will give you FIVE SECONDS (or one chance to answer) to identify who you are, how you found my AIM name, and say something like "I'm from LJ" before I block you. Capiche? That is the ONLY warning you will get. Heed it. I love.
I love to read and write and draw. I enjoy music, especially J-pop, some contemporary, instrumental and classical, and soundtracks. My choices in music run along "I like how it sounds." With the exception of a few Coolio songs, I abhor Gangsta Rap, and like SOME R&B.
I graduated from Miriam College, and majored in International Studies. My family and my education are the most important things to me in the world.
Formerly belonged to, and was the last head of, the faction in the Megatokyo forums known as the Church of Miho. However, I will always be a Miho fangirl.
Trying to chill right now...and trying to continue writing my fanfic 'novel' - Slayers Dragon's Cycle, as well as trying to write and produce artwork professionally. This is squeezed in between having a family and a long distance relationship with manta_x, and literary-related employment. I have a daughter, nicknamed Miyu, age 12, and manta_x and I have a son, Vincent, age 6.
I am loved.
Family Photo 2012
Rhys always has a problem with the redeye... ^^;;;
2013 Family Photo Four generations all in one picture! ^___^
ANZAC Day 2013; one year as a family together!
I currently am the cover artist, editor and soon, co-author for a fictional universe called The Arcadian Storyverse. The first book of the series United Fleet: The Right Place can be purchased through this handy link.
I adore cooking. I recently made a a cooking journal! Visit it at hearth_witchery or
Lots of people ask me where I get my 'drow'ish username and general identity from. Do I read R.A. Salvatore?
Heh, yes, I did and still do, but my 'drowish' avatar comes from the concept of the svartalfar (norse mythology) and the Daione Sidhe rather than Drizzt. I came across the term of "Dark Elf" while devouring mythology as a kid and didn't find much on it other than "svartalfar" and that they were either good or evil, and that they were similar to Celtic Daione Sidhe (which had nothing further). (as such, my avatar / online representation is a female dark elf with brown skin)
Mind, this was ages and ages before we had the joys of Wikipedia. =) Also, the Dark Elf was to me, a far more exotic and sensual image than the fairylike, wispy images of pale-skinned elves, especially elven women. The fact that they could be either benevolent or malevolent added even more spice (as opposed to simply being mischievous) Being a sensual, earthy, willful, independent and complex sort of person, I adopted this image and concept as my avatar.
Later, the very image of my avatar's idea appeared when I ran across the fantasy world of Lodoss and its' Dark Elves; elves who while portrayed as the servants of evil, were not necessarily so. The fact that Pirotess was a sexy, sensual, and very capable counterpart to Deedlit (Who annoyed me from the get-go) only added to the appeal of the anime. I started drawing my avatar image more in the anime-style since.
The blue-gray skinned Dark Elves in my usericons are based off the Lineage 2 MMO, which I used to play. My main characters are Dark Elves, cute dwarves, human sorcerers, and floaty Light Elves.
I'm cute, little, and a drow.
Shadowdancer Duskstar is my image-avatar name for my 'self'. I've always felt closer to the dusk/sunset and the night than I have been to the daylight hours, despite my first name meaning 'dawn'. Ever since I was a child, I've liked the darkness, thus the name.
I've used the name and avatar in roleplay (specifically, Megatokyo: The Clans but the avatar and the character are not the same, nor is the Shadowdancer of the MT:tC game the same as the one from my Slayers fanficcing days. They only share a general appearance, the personalities and stories are different (and there was a reason why that Shadowdancer only had four fingers - her ring fingers had been cut off.)
A few defining quotes:
The shortest and surest way to live with honor in the world is to be in reality what we would appear to be - Socrates
"No man was ever endowed with a right without being at the same time saddled with a responsibility." - Gerald W. Johnson
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." — Dr. Seuss
The willingness to accept responsibility for one's own life is the source from which self-respect springs. ~Joan Didion
If you want children to keep their feet on the ground, put some responsibility on their shoulders. ~Abigail Van Buren
"I must do something" always solves more problems than "Something must be done." ~Author Unknown
I believe that every right implies a responsibility; every opportunity, an obligation; every possession, a duty. ~John D. Rockefeller, Jr.
Take your life in your own hands, and what happens? A terrible thing: no one to blame. ~Erica Jong
No man was ever endowed with a right without being at the same time saddled with a responsibility. ~Gerald W. Johnson
“But the Hebrew word, the word timshel—‘Thou mayest’— that gives a choice. It might be the most important word in the world. That says the way is open. That throws it right back on a man. For if ‘Thou mayest’—it is also true that ‘Thou mayest not.” ― John Steinbeck, East of Eden
“Excellence is never an accident. It is always the result of high intention, sincere effort, and intelligent execution; it represents the wise choice of many alternatives - choice, not chance, determines your destiny.” ― Aristotle
“Sleep my little baby-oh Sleep until you waken When you wake you'll see the world If I'm not mistaken...
Kiss a lover Dance a measure, Find your name And buried treasure...
Face your life Its pain, Its pleasure, Leave no path untaken.” ― Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book
“This I choose to do. If there is a price, this I choose to pay. If it is my death, then I choose to die. Where this takes me, there I choose to go. I choose. This I choose to do.” ― Terry Pratchett, Wintersmith
Whether or not you have children yourself, you are a parent to the next generation. If we can only stop thinking of children as individual property and think of them as the next generation, then we can realize we all have a role to play. ~Charlotte Davis Kasl, Finding Joy, 1994
Why do children want to grow up? Because they experience their lives as constrained by immaturity and perceive adulthood as a condition of greater freedom and opportunity. But what is there today, in America, that very poor and very rich adolescents want to do but cannot do? Not much: they can "do" drugs, "have" sex, "make" babies, and "get" money (from their parents, crime, or the State). For such adolescents, adulthood becomes synonymous with responsibility rather than liberty. Is it any surprise that they remain adolescents? ~Thomas Szasz
These are people who haven't gone through the legal means to becoming citizens like our forefathers did. They want all the benefits but none of the responsibilities. Matt Dillon
What does it mean to be an American? While each of us may have our own specific answer to that question, we likely can agree on the basic principles of America: freedom, equal opportunity, and rights accompanied by responsibilities. Ben Nelson
When the freedom they wished for most was freedom from responsibility, then Athens ceased to be free and was never free again Edith Hamilton (A lesson we should heed well!)
You cannot hope to build a better world without improving the individuals. To that end, each of us must work for our own improvement and, at the same time, share a general responsibility for all humanity, our particular duty being to aid those to whom we think we can be most useful. Marie Curie
“Liberty is never unalienable; it must be redeemed regularly with the blood of patriots or it always vanishes. Of all the so-called natural human rights that have ever been invented, liberty is least likely to be cheap and is never free of cost.” ― Robert A. Heinlein, Starship Troopers
“We must reject the idea that every time a law's broken, society is guilty rather than the lawbreaker. It is time to restore the American precept that each individual is accountable for his actions.” ― Ronald Reagan
“Writing of only one small part of the broader problem, namely the single-minded pursuit of individualistic 'rights,' [Don] Feder is not wrong to conclude:
Absent a delicate balance--rights and duties, freedom and order--the social fabric begins to unravel. The rights explosion of the past three decades has taken us on a rapid descent to a culture without civility, decency, or even that degree of discipline necessary to maintain an advanced industrial civilization. Our cities are cesspools, our urban schools terrorist training camps, our legislatures brothels where rights are sold to the highest electoral bidder.” ― D.A. Carson, The Gagging of God: Christianity Confronts Pluralism
“Love is the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth... Love is as love does. Love is an act of will -- namely, both an intention and an action. Will also implies choice. We do not have to love. We choose to love.” ― M. Scott Peck
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. - Corinthians 13:4
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace. -Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
“I miss us too. I always have and I probably always will. Sometimes there are no happy endings. No matter what, I'll be losing something, someone. But maybe that's what it all comes down to. Love, not as a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice again and again, day in and day out, year after year,says more about love than never having a choice to make at all.” ― Emily Giffin, Love the One You're with
“Without knowing it, the adults in our lives practiced a most productive kind of behavior modification. After our chores and household duties were done we were give "permission" to read. In other words, our elders positioned reading as a privilege - a much sought-after prize, granted only to those goodhardworkers who earned it. How clever of them.” ― Mildred Armstrong Kalish, Little Heathens: Hard Times and High Spirits on an Iowa Farm During the Great Depression
"Sanity calms, but madness is more interesting." - John Russel "I'm not suffering from insanity... I *revel* in it." -Lezard Valeth VP RPG forums "You're not afraid of me? That could be the beginning of a very fatal disease..." -Brahms (VP RPG) "I find my life much less complicated the lower I keep everyone's expectations of my character." --Lezard (From the Valkyrie Profile RPG Board) "Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds." - Albert Einstein For Duty I serve and for Duty I am. For Duty I do what I must do. 1337 = Elite. Elite = upper crust, the cream of the crop. The select few who are proven worthy... I'll be an elitist, thanks. - me
"Every normal man must be tempted at times to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats." - Henry Mencken, via dmstraylight
"The legitimate powers of government extend to such acts only as are injurious to others. But it does me no injury for my neighbour to say there are twenty gods, or no god. It neither picks my pocket nor breaks my leg." --Thomas Jefferson
"It's not enough to win. You want nothing left of your enemy but a skull nailed to a fencepost so everybody understands the cost of crossing you." —Durga (H.A.L.O)
************ "Son, we live in a world that has walls, and those walls have to be guarded by men with guns. Who's gonna do it? You?! You, Lieutenant Weinberg?! I have a greater responsibility than you can possibly fathom. You weep for Santiago and you curse the Marines. You have that luxury. You have the luxury of not knowing what I know: that Santiago's death, while tragic, probably saved lives. And my existence, while grotesque and incomprehensible to you, saves lives! You don't want the truth because deep down in places you don't talk about at parties, you want me on that wall! You need me on that wall! We use words like honor, code, loyalty. We use these words as the backbone of a life spent defending something. You use them as a punchline. I have neither the time nor the inclination to explain myself to a man who rises and sleeps under the blanket of the very freedom that I provide, and then questions the manner in which I provide it! I would rather you just said, "Thank you," and went on your way. Otherwise, I suggest you pick up a weapon and stand a post. Either way, I don't give a damn what you think you are entitled to!" - Col. Jessep, A Few Good Men
"Let them sonofabitches die for THEIR country!" - unknown
"What amazes me is that people expect civilized notions like fair play, rules of evidence, and civility to exist in a situation where killing other human beings is not just the norm, but the whole point. We are at war. The cozy, snuggly, armchair thoughts we have about proper action don't apply." - izuko
You cannot legislate the poor into prosperity by legislating the wealthy out of prosperity. What one person receives without working for, When half of the people get the idea that they do not have to work because the other half is going to take care of them, and when the other half gets the idea that it does no good to work because somebody else is going to get what they work for. That my dear friend, is the beginning of the end of any nation. You cannot multiply wealth by dividing it.”
* Adrian Rogers, 1931*
-*-*- A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week.
Always do everything you ask of those you command.
Better to fight for something than live for nothing.
It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived.
Accept the challenges so that you can feel the exhilaration of victory.
Do your damnedest in an ostentatious manner all the time.
I do not fear failure. I only fear the "slowing up" of the engine inside of me which is pounding, saying, "Keep going, someone must be on top, why not you?"
I don't measure a man's success by how high he climbs but how high he bounces when he hits bottom.
If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking.
If we take the generally accepted definition of bravery as a quality which knows no fear, I have never seen a brave man. All men are frightened. The more intelligent they are, the more they are frightened.
If you tell people where to go, but not how to get there, you'll be amazed at the results.
Don't tell people how to do things, tell them what to do and let them surprise you with their results.
Take calculated risks. That is quite different from being rash.
The time to take counsel of your fears is before you make an important battle decision. That's the time to listen to every fear you can imagine! When you have collected all the facts and fears and made your decision, turn off all your fears and go ahead!
Watch what people are cynical about, and one can often discover what they lack.
Prepare for the unknown by studying how others in the past have coped with the unforeseeable and the unpredictable.
We herd sheep, we drive cattle, we lead people. Lead me, follow me, or get out of my way.
No bastard ever won a war by dying for his country. He won it by making the other poor dumb bastard die for his country.
"The object of war isn't to die for your country - it's to make the other poor bastard die for his."
Nobody ever defended anything successfully, there is only attack and attack and attack some more.
There is a time to take counsel of your fears, and there is a time to never listen to any fear.
You need to overcome the tug of people against you as you reach for high goals.
If a man has done his best, what else is there?
-Quotes above by General Patton.
If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or, being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; If you can dream—and not make dreams your master; If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with triumph and disaster And treat those two imposters just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to broken, And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools; If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breathe a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on"; If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with kings—nor lose the common touch; If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; If all men count with you, but none too much; If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run - Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And—which is more—you'll be a Man my son! —Rudyard Kipling
Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away. Tom Clancy
Reposted with permission from John Wick.
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This Journal is used by me for the following purposes:
Art Showcasing. Photo Showcasing. Writing Showcasing (includes original and fan-related works) Venting and ranting. About everything and anyone I choose to vent about. If you find yourself a topic of such a vent/rant, I certainly hope you understand what 'venting' means. It's cathartic. Bitching. Random quizzage. Being exceedingly annoying. Message board to keep in contact with people. Place of Discussion for often political articles and topics which I post on my journal*
I will add to this list as I go along.
* Discussions mean the conversation better be civil. Pay attention to what I WRITE before you hop on your soapbox and declare me a force of ultimate evil. If you do not read what I have written and then say something incredibly stupid, I WILL reserve the right to rip you apart and display your abject stupidity for all to see.
*DO NOT force your religious or moral view on me. That will be subject to a ban.I am not Catholic or Christian and I will not convert you to my highly personal *Pagan* religion. DO NOT TRY TO CONVERT ME TO YOUR FAITH OR VIEW. I will not tolerate it any more than I tolerate voluntary stupidity.
*I have nothing against gays. They are people, and while I am not homosexual, I don't care if they are. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I CONDONE PEDOPHILLIA. Idiots.
Similarly, if it is an imaginary character, a drawing on a page, or illustration that is not real, I do not believe in protection of imaginary characters - even imaginary children. This includes loli hentai manga and anime. They are not real. Children in fiction writing get killed, murdered, raped, and slaughtered en masse. It doesn't matter. Fiction is fiction If you can't tell the difference you're an idiot, plain and simple.
The magnificent Neil Gaiman has an excellent essay on the matter. Why Defend Freedom of Icky Speech Yes, defending freedom of speech includes the things you would rather not hear, nor see, nor read, ever.
* I believe firmly in "Do as you will, an it harm none" - translation, fuckers: Do whatever you want as long as you don't hurt anyone and it happens with consent of those involved and doesn't endanger human rights and human beings. I never said "Go rape and murder because the Wiccan Rede says so." it does NOT say so, and you ever imply otherwise, I will expose your ignorance for all to laugh at.
What the AC Rede *does* do, in terms of actions that cause harm, is state an ethical value by which an individual must judge the results of her/his actions before acting. In other words, by stating that a harmless action is ethical, the AC Rede sets harmlessness as the criteria for evaluation. Acting to prevent greater harm - but in the process causing lesser harm - may then be ethical, if there is no harmless, or more harmless, method of preventing that greater harm - because *not* acting to prevent harm is to *cause* it, by an act of *omission* rather than *commission*.
The Rede is a harder rule to follow than you think. I also keep to it more than most Christians seem to keep the Ten Commandments. But I will also fight back. The Rede does not say anything about me not defending myself, or to turn the other cheek. Self-defense is perfectly ethical.
*Summary of above, for the lazy: Please take a few more moments to read, before replying, or i'll remove your voicing rights from this thread. Repeated violations will incur a ban.
Oh and before anyone starts bitching about my view on the "Religion of Peace", shut up and read this: Links about the concept of Taqiyya and how it is used to lie to people, and get them on 'their' side. Lying for Allah The word "Taqiyya" literally means: "Concealing, precaution, guarding.” It is employed in disguising one's beliefs, intentions, convictions, ideas, feelings, opinions or strategies. In practical terms it is manifested as dissimulation, lying, deceiving, vexing and confounding with the intention of deflecting attention, foiling or pre-emptive blocking. It is currently employed in fending off and neutralising any criticism of Islam or Muslims.
Falsehoods told to prevent the denigration of Islam, to protect oneself, or to promote the cause of Islam are sanctioned in the Qur'an and Sunna, including lying under oath in testimony before a court, deceiving by making distorted statements to the media such as the claim that Islam is a “religion of peace”. A Muslim is even permitted to deny or denounce his faith if, in so doing, he protects or furthers the interests of Islam, so long as he remains faithful to Islam in his heart.
Muslim scholars teach that Muslims should generally be truthful to each other, unless the purpose of lying is to "smooth over differences."
There are two forms of lying to non-believers that are permitted under certain circumstances, taqiyya and kitman. These circumstances are typically those that advance the cause Islam - in some cases by gaining the trust of non-believers in order to draw out their vulnerability and defeat them. ===================== Remember that silence does not equal peace. The tenets of Sha'ria and Islam are very much against the Rede. I cannot, in accordance to the Rede, condone Islam, even though I believe in the freedom of religion.
If you are interested in learning more about the reality of Islam and Sha'ria law, click on these links
live action series being sporadically watched House MD. And I refuse to watch Avatar because I can't stand Aang. Merlin (British show shown on BBC and I'm happily able to get off torrents. Titular character reminds me a bit of Rhys; he's cute. =3 ) Through the Wormhole With Morgan Freeman on Discovery Channel.
Books I own / read / want to read / want to own
Yay for Shelfari! This isn't a list of all the books I have... yet... it'll take a while for me to document my library. It's ever-growing.